Heard the C word again; the one that fills the human heart with dread.
The C word that forces me to “lean not on my own understanding”
But rest in a sovereign God.
He tells me surgery is scheduled, but the doctor’s optimistic prognosis doesn’t slay the inner demons swimming in the back of the mind:
What if ?
Dwelling on the problem instead of the Lord,
Feeds FEAR and makes it grow into a gIANT that only faith can slay.
“For the Lord your God will hold your right hand saying to you, ‘Fear not. I will help you.’” (Isaiah 41:13)
- Fear not, even if it’s cancer.
- Fear not, I will hold your right hand.
- Fear not, I will help you.
I cling to that promise like a blanket and fall asleep, one ear listening for the phone to ring.
And it does ring, waking me up just as dawn appears on my horizon and bird song fills the air.
A weary monotone voice greets me from a thousand miles away where skies are blue, but not for him.
I feel the weight of the world on his shoulders as he waits for his wife’s operation to be over, and the lab results to show good news.
Words stick in my throat as I search for the right thing to say.
“May I pray with you?”
Instead of holding warm-blooded hands, I grip the cold metal of my cell phone and …
- Plead to the heavens on his behalf.
- Pray to the Lord who is an ever present help in times of trouble.
- Claim God’s promises that are true.
“When you go through deep waters, I will be with you. When you go through rivers of difficulty, you will not drown. When you walk through the fire of oppression, you will not be burned up; the flames will not consume you. (Isaiah 43:2)
If only I could crawl through the phone, and sit beside him. Show that I care beyond words. But I can’t.
So I hang up and do what I can.
- Bow my head and pray some more.
- Sound the trumpet so my fellow saints will pray too.
- Rely on the Holy Spirit who dwells within my friend to do what I can’t.
Be his strength in weakness;
give him grace that is enough,
guard his mind with the peace that surpasses human understanding.
Even in this ……