The young girl within me giggled when I walked into the hotel room. It was immaculate. And there was a king-size bed just for me. I plopped down on the pillow-top mattress.
I can watch whatever on television. I can stay up late reading. I can eat crackers in bed…it’s all my space.
Odd those ten hours of space would trigger my emotions.
I remember being a child on family vacations. Long hours driving down the highway in our Ford station wagon. My younger brother stretches out on the back bench seat, his feet crossing the imaginary line we agreed upon.
“Mommm, tell R…to get on his own side!”
As a teenager, if little brother walked into my bedroom uninvited,“Mom, tell R… to get out of my room!”
In my twenties, two spaces became one. Not only did I have to share my personal space, so did the groom. After the honeymoon, I had to ask, “Honey, may I have some closet space for my clothes?”
Then the children arrived and there was no space. They thought nothing of knocking on my bathroom door.
“Can’t it wait?”
“Tell J….to leave me alone.”
Now that two of our children are grown, I have more space. But some days I want it all to myself. Don’t ask me why. I only know, for one night I had my space. And it was good.
Then came self-imposed guilt.
I thought of the excellent wife described in Proverbs 31. According to verses 15 and 18, she didn’t have any space. The woman “gets up while it is still dark, and her lamp does not go out at night.”
Then again, perhaps we aren’t so different. Many a day, I rose while it was “still dark” to feed my babies and rock them back to sleep. Plenty of “nights” I stayed awake to stroke my children’s feverish brows.
As on-call wife and mom, I carved my space out of early mornings and midnight hours. Then I learned to share that space with God.
How can a woman be a good steward, serve her family, and minister to the needy without enough space?
“Very early in the morning, while it was still dark, Jesus got up, left the house and went off to a solitary place where he prayed” (Mark 1:35 NIV).
Need space? Rise early while it’s still dark, and pray…
Even in this season of life.